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Tuesday, March 29, 2011

I am sorry

The tone of self-pity around here is a bit embarrassing. I guess what's worse than "sharing" this (to me) is not really having anyone around here to talk to about it. Most people fear being judged. I know I do. I'm already getting a lot of it because I can't seem to handle two kids (my dad! People! He's SO unsympathetic with his "I warned her how difficult two kids would be. And, she should be working!!")

But really... Last week's experience gave me more than heart palpitations. I really left the hospital with a lot of feelings of gratitude. Not just for my family's overall health, but for those of you who were kind enough to reach out to me during that time. A time that was a bit scary for me.

So, I'm sorry for being whiny, sad, scared, an idiot... whatever. But, I'm thankful for you.

5 comments:

Becca said...

I do not get the lack of sympathy. Having a newborn and another child is not what having two kids will feel like forever. It will get SO much better and it doesn't take very long. Hang in there and vent all you want. It would probably help to find a local group of friends who are going through the same thing so you can vent in person, too. Maybe there's something at your church?

Sarah said...

You're doing great, Mariann! If anyone thinks differently, tell them to stick it.

And no, you should definitely NOT be working. :)

Janet said...

I totally agree with Becca's comment. I don't see how anyone can be hating on you right now. Can you just block those people out? They are crazy! I think you are doing a great job, frankly! I think you are a great mama. And I am so sorry for how rough things have been. I am glad Daniel is getting better! Hugs to you, friend.

Shannon said...

I agree too! I have two kids but they are 10 years apart so it's not really the same thing. I will admit I am terrified to have another. I really would like to but Liam is a high-maintenance person. And no one will understand what it is like to raise a high-maintenance person unless they've raised one themselves. But I know things will get better. This is such a small part of our lives. You will blink and Daniel will be 3 and Nathan 6. Stay calm and pray often.

AJU5's Mom said...

Whine all you want. We all do it occasionally. It is what friends are there for - to show you how to get over the harder times!