When I was in DC a couple of weeks ago, I was on "light duty". Poor Amy. We ended up sitting around, a lot. I didn't care because I just wanted to spend time with my BFF and her family (LOVE her son and husband). But, I felt bad for her. She's a busy, working mom. She's always on the go. And there I was, becoming one with her sofa.
Anyway, on the last day I was there, we ended up watching way too many episodes of "A Baby Story." I have to tell you - in high school, I saw the "Miracle of Life", the worst biology/health class film ever, three times in one week. Since then, all things childbirth related have freaked me out. So, couple that with being pregnant with some minor complications, I was terrified. Yet, I couldn't seem to change the channel. Three hours later, I was rolled into a little ball, traumatized.
Since then, I've been reading many more articles and books about childbirth and am way less grossed out. But what still bothers me is the idea of it - being so exposed, naked, vulnerable in front of all those people. When I became a little better at articulating this, I called my mom.
Me: Mom... about having a baby.
I could hear the fear in her voice, because as close as we are, we've never had one of those relationships. The ones where you talk about naughty business and the potential good/bad repercussions of that naughty business.
Me: As much as I love you, there's no way in hell you're going to be in the delivery room with me. In fact, I'm not sure I want The Targo there. Do you think they can do it in the dark? Maybe under the covers? Omigod!
After she was finished laughing at me (not in my general direction), she said: That's okay, I don't want to be there either.
I'm relieved. I didn't want to hurt her feelings, but the idea is just scary to me.
To those of you who've had children, or are thinking you might someday, who do you want in the room with you? And really, I won't make The Targo wait outside; but our neck-up rule still applies.
*Edit* I can't believe I'm talking about this already. I'm so trying not to become more boring.