I had an appointment with the genetic counselor on Tuesday, which coincided with my 20 week ultrasound. I'm sure I've mentioned how amazing I've felt over the past four months, but every time I've seen this doctor, I'm terrified that they're going to find something wrong with me or the Jelly Bean. Stupid paranoia.
Tuesday, the doctor told me that the baby was measuring "on the low end of normal" and my fluid was "on the low end of normal." With the baby's size, I think my due date is a little early, and I'm going to talk to my OB about that in a few weeks. But the fluid? Well, that's a little scary. Stupidly, I googled it and got even more freaked out.
My beautiful friend, Amy, reminded me that this ultrasound was just a snapshot and it doesn't mean a trend. I had this appointment at 9:00 in the morning and hadn't really had anything to eat or drink. I'm sure that had something to do with it.
Sometimes, I think in our age of prevention and uber-technology, that we forget pregnancy is a completely natural thing. Most women can get through it without any sort of medical intervention. But we're not conditioned to think that. We need the reassurance from the experts.
I've been talking to some of my other friends who are either pregnant or have just given birth, and they've recommended talking to a doula. This is something I'd thought of doing anyway, because I'd really really like to not have another c-section. I've contacted the sweet women at Mother Me Inc. and I'm thinking of spending a ridiculous amount of money for a consultation. Maybe, just maybe, it will help me relax a little.