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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Looking Up

I feel like not only have I been Debbie Downer on this blog, but I've been a little bit down in real life. This has been manifested in my lack of sleep, massive weight gain, and my disinclination to do anything with anyone aside from my family.

Last week, I went back to my small group at church and I was so grateful. I had been praying about it and felt like the group was something I had to drop. I didn't have time for it. I loved the exercise, and when I had time to keep up, I loved the study. But the commitment was so oppressive to me. I skipped it for two weeks and then I decided I HAD to go back. I felt all this temptation to not go, but I went and it was really special, amazing. Unfortunately, I didn't make it last night. I worked late and had a migraine... so I just sat on the couch and snuggled my men. I think that's pretty spiritual.

As I turned the corner on my sadness, which I was afraid was nearing depression, God opened another door for me. I was offered an adjunct teaching position. Really? Me? The fat girl who doesn't speak up in class? Wow. It's an amazing opportunity and I feel so blessed. Most importantly, if it goes well, they're going to offer me more classes.

I feel like the horizon is brightening, but I've got to look up to see it.


AJU5's Mom said...

Yay for getting a teaching job!

As for the small group, normally when we don't want to go to church/be around other Christians it is because Satan is tempting us. These are often the times when we need to be there the most. Hopefully you can continue to attend without feeling like it is oppressive!

Faith said...

I'm SO glad to read this on your blog! Congrats on the class - cool! I hope your small group experience is good. I've had great small groups and not-so great small groups usually I'm glad to have a chance to be with other adults and have a chance to talk about our walks with God.